P l a t y p u s ' s F o r k

Gaya hidup sehat itu terdengar begitu susah (For at least buat gue) karna gue mesti makan buah setiap hari, dan olah raga teratur. Sampe di titik gue ikutan fitness dan mulai nyempetin waktu buat buang keringet dan beli buah (nitip ke OB Kantor buat dibeliin karna selalu ga sempet buat beli sendiri), in anyway gue ngerasa segeran sih.

Jadi apa yang hal yang ga biasa gue lakukan tapi I start to do it anyway?

1. Olahraga --> Pulang kantor nyempetin ke tempat fitness, entah itu ada kelas atau cuman main2 di treadmill 10 menit plus jalan + sit up 10 kali aja (lemah), and swimming, IF I remember to bring the swimsuit. Kenapa rajin? karna udah bayar. ga mau rugi (Hih. pelitnya gue)

2. Bikin infused water --> Ciye. gaya amat yah si irin yang hidup nya ngasal sekarang mau bikin infused water tiap hari di kantor. Tapi enak ko, potongin lemon, masukin madu (kalau stok masih ada) terus masukin air anget, diemin 10 menit, terus masukin kulkas 2 jam, and VOILA, infused water ready to be enjoyed. Gue suka nya ga pake madu sih, biar lebih asem2 seger aja, bisa juga pake buah yang lain, tapi mahal, mending digigit aja daripada dibikin infused water (Hih pelit. hahahaha)

3. Makan buah --> I am not a hardcore fan for fruits. Bukan ga suka, cuman males ngupas dan segala keribetannya. But I start to eat it everyday, jeruk sunkist adalah pilihan utama karna manis dan asem dan ga ribet motonginnya, jadi seger. Iyah, meski begitu beres potong buah, diserbu sama temen2.

Kalau jam tidur masih buruk seperti biasa, event worst, now I almost only can fall asleep at 3 am, I know, that's bad. Makin beranjak dewasa itu masalahnya aneh2 sih, and then I started to talk with myself again, in the toilet room at the office, and I asks many things to myself and a little bit relieved, no... I don't solved  the problems, it just feels really nice to talk to myself after a very long time. 

Hi, Papah!

Semoga istirahat tenang di sana ya, Pah.

Irin lagi dalam fase sadar dan berusaha menerima fakta that you really will not back to this world. I still need you, frankly. But the fact that you were passed away.

Help me through this, Pah, can you? Hahahah silly question. I hope you the best, dan disayang sama Tuhan. He must be love you, you really the luckiest person ever. Proud to be your daughter. Miss you so bad right now. You know? somehow to make this dramatic, I plaid Chicago songs and cried litres of tears and hoping that after the tears I will be better, it does help me, but sometimes I miss you like I really want to run and hug you just like the old days. Even when I were always far from you, just knowing that you are home and I can meet you every time I want to, really strengthen me. I did this and that, I want you to proud of me, and until the last time of your life, I show you nothing. 

Papah, I am sorry I can not be your best daughter, I should spent more time with you, I should take a really good care of you, I should show you more than this. I should be a better person, please forgive me.